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May 9, 2008

A Night at the Bookstore

Erin goes to Westminster College studying for a Master's in Communications. As a result, I drive her to school and class and then go and set up at Barnes and Noble. At least, that's what I did the last couple of nights. Last night not excepted. Well, Tuesday night (she was going through an orientation) I went and bought The Looking Glass Wars by Frank Beddor and started reading it, but, since then I have taken computer and homework and gone to town.

Which, truthfully, has been rather a good opportunity for me to get some stuff done, mainly homework, that is being shoved into a term (8 weeks) rather than a semester (16 weeks) and requires me to get really good grades.

As I was completing the reading for Deductive Logic last night a group of (mostly) men swarmed the area where I was sitting. This was the point I was thinking of extracting my computer and starting Scrivener to work through some ideas I've had on a story. Anyway, I ignored most of these men because, well, they were physically unnattractive, loud, had opinions on everything from the Utah Department of Motor Vehicles to the lasting negative legacy an Obama presidency would have on the country that, coupled with noise along the lines of people who just talk to talk and not to be heard, and who are intentionally, vocally, and loudly offensive and want to be that way, I'd decided to ignore whatever was happening around me.

And then I saw it.

The covered Go stone bowls I've been coveting. Well, not really coveting since I rarely look for them. I did want a pair of ceramic bowls for the black and white stones; but never actually got around to finding what I thought would work and so, have my Go stones sitting on a shelf, in the boxes they came in, in the front room when Erin would prefer them to be in the office on a shelf with the "other" games.

Regardless of my reasons, the stones remain where they are.

I asked the man about his bowls and he was polite in telling me where he got them... and his Go board, and after several minutes of discussion, decided to ask if I wanted to play, with him, a game of Go.

You have to understand, I've played, MAYBE, a handful of games of Go. I generally, when the technology exists, have a version running on my PDA or computer, computer being the more likely home, but otherwise, and other than, playing with Andy or one of my nephews, and then only playing a variant called First Capture, I've never really played and never gotten to the point where I felt I knew a lot about the game.

So I agreed.

We sat down and started to play. I was offered, and accepted, a handicap and then the older gentleman started to teach me the basic strategy of Go.

It was interesting because I knew that Go is a game of territory. The objective for YOU is to gather as much uncontested territory as possible. However, that is the same objective for the opponent. To gain territory you want your areas to be as black or as white, depending on which stone you are playing, as possible. The outcome is that if you don't create defenses internally, then it is possible for the other stones to capture all of yours and you will lose.

I did lose. But not without having a pretty good education on how the game is supposed to be played and some strategy, as well as a whole slew of Chinese (not sure which independent dialect) words that mean my piece is in jeopardy or that something else is likely to happen. Regardless, the outcome was pretty fun and I got to meet a few new people (even though there were a couple of dozen sitting and playing) at least one of whom decided that the next time I am there we should play a game.

One piece of advice, from someone I'd intended to ignore, was to, as quickly as I can, lose 100 games so I have an idea of what strategy means in the game of Go. I wonder, honestly, whether or not I should start that counting last night or if that counting started some years ago when I got my first PDA with Go on it and I started losing soundly and unknowingly. Truth told, I think it starts with the basic understanding of strategy and moves forward from there.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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May 8, 2008

Updated IOTW

I did a couple of updates on IOTW today. One is a reprint book review, following up with the Spells and Sleepingbags review I did earlier in the week; while the other is a link and comments on How Not to get an Agent.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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The Day After the Day Things Changed -- again

So, if'n you read yesterday's post you know I went and saw a new doctor about some problems that have been extant since New Hampshire and which a wheat-free/Celiac diet has helped with, but that has become secondary to other issues that have started to resurface in my life. About a year ago, closer to ten or eleven months now, I saw a doctor about what I thought was probably Acid Reflux and had an upper GI which is a bunch of x-ray's where the radiologist manipulates you into positions where gastric juices are forced back up the esophagus and into the throat. The throat has a sphincter that blocks things like this from happening and part of what Acid Reflux is, is the sphincter not working properly. I, apparently, have that problem.

The plus side was that I didn't have any long-term damage to the esophagus, there is no cancer (one of the side effects of Acid Reflux) and a prescription of Prilosec has helped immensely. Yippe-kay-ay little campers.

Anyway, in my discussion with the doctor yesterday he asked about the Acid Relux and eventually asked whether or not I was taking the medicine in the morning. I informed him that the doctor who prescribed the medicine told me it could be taken at night before bed (as that is a consistent time for me) and he responded, "No, no, no, no. That is not how it is to be taken."

He then proceeded to outline for me the proper method of taking Prilosec for Acid Reflux. Essentially, you take it thirty minutes (to an hour) before you eat in the morning. What this does is get the medicine absorbed into the bloodstream and then you east something which causes the acid pumps to turn on, that in turn allows the inhibitors (the medicine) to go into action. This is supposed to make me feel better, Acid Reflux wise, sooner.

The reason this becomes an entry is that I followed the doc's directions I woke up this morning with a couple of things I've not dealt with for a while: sick, painful feeling in lower right abdomen and the feeling of the Acid Reflux in the back of my mouth. Fun fun. There is a good possibility that these are merely coincidental with what the doctor will be anal probing me for next week (note to self, call insurance company to get them to pre-authorize procedure); however, I think there is probably more of a relationship here than meets the eye (or it does meet the eye and you are a transformers fan and... moving on).

On the flipside of the whole situation, having the colonoscopy and endoscopy is actually becoming a mentally prevalent aspect to my life. I spent some time (working at Barnes and Noble while Erin was in class because I am driving her to school and home) thinking about it and realizing that for the first time in my life I am concerned not only for myself, but for Erin and 'little camper'. Sure, there should be nothing to worry about, this is a common procedure that they also have to put me out for, but that doesn't change the nature of thinking, "What if...?"

Regardless, the procedure will take place next week, I will be put out, Erin will sit (and hopefully read something or do something) and I will wake up and head home and recover for a bit. I expect that the doctor will have some answers and, the eventual outcome, may be medication to help with the effects of Crohn's Disease.

What was interesting to me, today, was that I changed my medication strategy and am feeling a bit under the weather.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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May 7, 2008

Changing Body, Changing News

No. This is not a post about Erin and 'little camper'. Rather, it is a post about the changing nature of my body. Specifically, what is causing some new and more disturbing problems, to include incontinence. This latter part has been less than fun, often embarrassing, and has (more than once) cause me to have to destroy underwear that I don't really want to destroy/replace.

After the last bout (20 minutes plus in a stall in the McKay Building waiting for traffic to die down, then walking to my car, and then driving home and cleaning myself, putting on new clothes, and then waiting hours for Imodium to kick in so I could do anything) I took the advice of the people in my life and scheduled a doctor's appointment. The doctor listened, did some things (I won't go into graphic detail), ran some tests, mostly blood, but also included defacating into cups over a couple of days, and then being sent to a gastroenterologist.

The visit to the GI (short for gastroenterologist, don't ask me how or why) was today. I showed up about 30 minutes early knowing I was going to a new doctor and wanted to make sure that forms and documents and insurance were all taken care of. As a result, I was in to see the doctor about ten minutes before my scheduled appointment and the doctor came in about five minutes early as well. He sat down, looked at the information sent over from the BYU Health Center and then asked a lot of questions about what was going on with me.

One part of this conversation was my diet change about three years ago. I indicated a belief that I might be Celiac, that a doctor had tested me for two of the four markers, and since then I have been a pretty strict wheat-free diet. As a result, since I am not eating wheat my body is not producing the anti-bodies that would exist if I were Celiac. The doctor listened, was actually very surprised that I was not only on a wheat-free diet, but had been on one for this long.

Part of me expected to hear that I would have to take in some grams of wheat a day for the next month and have another test to eliminate Celiac Disease.

For those that don't know, Celiac Disease is a condition where the small intestines attack wheat or wheat based foods (starch, wheat, gluten, etc.) and as a result, destroy the small fingerlike celia in the small intestine. The outcome is two-fold: first, your body stops absorbing the nutrients from food which, in turn, causes a lot of other problems; and second, you begin losing weight, your body stops accepting other foods and you end up getting sick.

In my case, the problems occurred after a very tense time when I had to deal with a sexual harassment complaint (I opened the complaint against someone else) which is, often, one of the causes for Celiac to present itself. On top of that I had abdominal pains, diahrea, and other problems. For these reasons, and more, I stopped eating wheat after seeing a doctor who (again, three years ago) tested for two of the four markers and then declared that if I felt better not eating wheat I should just not eat wheat.

Well, according to the GI specialist (gastroenterologist) he didn't think I was Celiac and was reticent to add that to my medical history because I could be one of two other things that present in a very similar way: wheat intolerant, carbohydrate intolerant.

The big difference between an intolerance and Celiac disease is, believe it or not, which one causes cancer. Granted, they may all present in exactly the same way, but Celiac Disease has a tendency to become stomach and intestinal cancer if the diet is not changed; where intolerances are just that, your body doesn't like what you're eating, but also doesn't stop you from eating things - though eating wheat based items can cause discomfort (in my case pain).

Instead of focusing on Celiac, the doctor decided that my symptoms were more along the lines of Crohn's Disease. Crohn's Disease is an abnormality in the intestines that causes them to not sync properly. Essentially the intestines are a series of muscles that push the food through while absorbing nutrients. What this does is cause the body to not function in a way that allows nutrients to be absorbed properly or the body to function all that comfortably.

In any outcome, the gold standard in testing for all of these problems comes in the form of a colonoscopy and an endoscopy. Essentially, I am going in for an anal probe. Actually, they will be scoping and biopsing from both directions. From what I've read and heard these are extremely painful procedures, so I will be put under (sleep) while they are being done. The doctor said they would last about 30 minutes and that my entire time under should be less than two hours.

This does not mean I can drive away from the out-patient facility on my own, which is why Erin is going with me. She has admitted to being a little scare for me. I am not exactly at ease with this. Having and endoscopy and a colonoscopy sounds like something that does not even resemble fun. I guess I should be glad that I will not be awake.

The outcome is going to be a pretty satisfactory understanding of what has been causing me problems for about four years. What is a pleasant side-effect of finally seeing doctors and having BYU Student Insurance is the chance to actually meet with a GI and have him determine what my problem(s) is. The outcome may remain that I keep the current wheat-free/Celiac diet, or I may find that I get to experiment with foods and can start seeing what causes what kinds of reactions inside of me. Truth told, I think I will find that I am more comfortable with a wheat-free diet; but I won't know until after everything happens next week and then the doctor has had time to do whatever he needs to do and then tells me whatever it is he thinks based off of the evidence, symptoms, and other things.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassandra West

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May 6, 2008

Tonight is the Night

Tonight Erin starts her graduate career at Westminster College in Salt Lake City. This is actually quite fun as I get to drive her there and she gets to have more of an indoctrination into the culture and atmosphere she will encounter whilst taking classes at this college. Her emphasis/program: communications.

This is actually very exciting.

Apart from that, I've had some thoughts after reading Kurt Vonnegut's rules for writing. There are eight of them. One of his rules: Start as close to the end as possible. After I read that I began to reflect on the various books I've read where they end up going into series and those series don't (really) appear to have any kind of definable ending. Kim Harrison write a compelling series of stories that, when I first started reading them, felt more like candy than anything with substance, and they can be read that way, but after the last couple of books there is not only depth to the series (evidenced earlier in the books) but also a direction she is taking the reader. I don't see her being like Xanth author Pierce Anthony and plopping out another novel every year about the same world, updating it with new and mundane, or not mundane, characters; but really as a series that can be read, each book on its own, or as a deepening mystery into something far more... sinister.

Another one of Vonnegut's rules was: Every character should want something, even if it is just a glass of water. That is an interesting rule, and possibly a good rule of thumb. Thinking about that, no character should be introduced for any length of time without him/her needing or wanting something. Erin was reading The Count of Monte Christo the other night and read off a passage to me that was funny, but completely out of place. I asked, "What character says that?" she gave me a name, and then I said, "I don't know who that is." She repeated the name and then admitted that she had no idea who or what that character was either. This interchange does not mean that the character doesn't hold some role; it is an illustration of an author, Dumas, inserting something into the book that might have been better coming from a different character who actually has a purpose in the story.

Ayn Rand, pretty quickly, in her book Atlas Shrugged has Francisco in a room playing with marbles when Dagne knows he is more driven and intelligent than he is acting. In this context, the character is expressing his disinterest and trying to convey the principles John Gault promotes.

Another rules is: Give your readers as much information as possible as soon as possible. To heck with suspense. Readers should have such complete understanding of what is going on, where and why, that they could finish the story themselves, should cockroaches eat the last few pages. This is an interesting rule and one I think I am at odds with. I mean, a religious person prays, receives inspiration about direction, and then heads off on their own. They, often, have little to go on but faith and faith sometimes fails them.

In real life, we often don't have enough information to make decisions, move on to the next stage, or even not screw things up pretty royally. Granted, the information and experience we have (incidentally the definition for hope) is enough that we don't really screw things up, but the potential always exists. I find it interesting (and necessary) that the author of a story, according to Vonnegut's rules, is meant to tell as much as possible as soon as possible, and leave out the suspense. Suspense is far overrated, but even a well crafted introduction to what you are writing about should be enough to hint at where you are going and how.

It is interesting to read about how other people write. For Vonnegut, this was his method. Write, tell, make sure everyone has a purpose, and be a sadist about writing. I've actually come across many articles and books where this is true. Having a hard time with what comes next, cause a problem, drop the protagonist and crew into a pit-o-lava, and etc. The outcome, often, is moving the story forward. The author of Ella Enchanted (Gail Carson Levine) was on campus and her way of working through a snag in writing is, literally, to simply cause havoc on her characters.

When you really think about stuff like that, though, isn't that how life is. You are going along, la-di-da, and then BAM!!!! you are broadsided by a car going too fast for the dry weather conditions and your car is totaled (note: my car was totaled sitting by its lonesome in front of our house; I have been in an accident where there was a broadsiding, though, memory hints it was the car I was in that did the broadside and not the car that ran the red light because he couldn't stop in time and didn't bother to try and give himself more time). You don't have money, you need a car, and your car is dead to the world. This is the example of sadism that comes into writing. It is unexpected, sometimes tragic, and the characters still have to move toward the end of the scene, book, or whatever.

I think one other example of this is a stage play where they were meant to use a gun at one point, early in the play the gun went off early, it was pointing at the main character, who, in response to a gun going off and pointing at him, fell over dead. The cast had to (in part) improvise around his part for the rest of the play. True story, but still an example of what happens when you throw in the wrath of Gebus into the mix and not care about your character (regardless of how approachable or likable... I wonder if that is how J.K. Rowling wrote this way?).

Regardless, the outcome is pretty standard. Good. Bad. Good. Bad. ad infinitum.

I am sure there is more to this, an essay on Vonnegut's writing rules and life, I mean, for example, if you are a writer and, say, in your life you are starting as close to the end as possible, drug use and alcohol would probably go a long way to making sure the end was as close to the beginning as possible; though, connecting this to not abusing the readers time is pretty hard as the drunk, stoned people I've known in my life have a tendency to, well, be wastes of my time when they are stoned and drunk. I did read Slaughterhouse-5 and didn't mind it and it felt a lot like the rantings of someone who needed more sleep, though the writing (as far as I am able to tell) did follow the eight rules.

John Hattaway | smokingpen | Alicia Grey | Clockwork Princess | Cassanadra West

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